Wednesday, October 11, 2006
hullo duck.
so the other day someone asked me wat are 10 things i would like to say to ppl without actually naming them. it was really an intruguing (for the lack of a better word, and a correct spelling) question but like 2 other ppl were talking to me (cos, i'm like, soooooo popularrrrr. hullo) and i couldnt really think so i just said nothing.
but here goes. for the jackass known as xamm.
1. yea i dont like u and i am tired of pretending to can we, like, stop talking altogether. the formalities are making me sick.
2. i know u cheated.
3. i cant look beyond the race issue. i am sorry.
4. i think u're cute. which doesnt mean i am in love with u or anything. so just, be a man. and talk to me? like, say hi can already. i am not asking to marry me, y'know? (and given the rate at which u are going, i wont)
5. i hate meeting u cos u are such a wet blanket it annoys me how u always have a reason to be sad about something. other than that, you're great company. so like, dont be so melodramatic about ur life, can?
6. i hate ur girlfriend.
7. i think u have issues. like, alot of them. (this one is to alot of ppl)
8. a teeny part of me wished i was more like u and less like me.
9. i think u're perfect. no, i am not lesbian.
10. i dont think u deserve it.
11. how do u make everything so easy?
12. do u, like, look down on me? cos it sure feels that way.
13. i still think we could've worked things out.
14. i am sorry.
15. stop trying so hard.
16. one more chance?
17. it may be love. or it may be just revenge. i dont know. i would like to find out. would u?
so, here we are. i guess i just dont have the courage to say these things to ppl. or that i dont really know how to phrase what i want to say in a way that i want ppl to receive them. or that i dont even know where these ppl are anymore.
nontheless. i think i have alwaays been like that. there was this beeeeetch in primary school her name was darrelle eng and she just was on my back all the time. and she was my classmate for 6 years and i had planned to tell her wat a bitch she was like on the last day of primary 6 but i guess i forgot or the words didnt come out. i dunno. but the same thing happened in secondary school. and in JC. and i reckon in IMU.
its funny cos ppl think there isnt usually a lag time between wat i think and wat i say. well, there usually isnt. especially when i dont really care about the repercussions. but there are way alot of things that i dont say because of a variety of reasons best left unstated.
if you're reading this (wait wat am i talking about. of course, you ARE reading this)
can u guess which one, if any, is directed at you?
posted R @
9:31 am
